Is this the sign?-- part 2

Duh.. hari ini aku lagi berbunga-bunga. Ga tau kenapa, meskipun hari ini capek, ngantuk dan boring ga karuan tapi tetep aja, something stucked in my mind dan bikin aku senyum-senyum sendiri.
Ya, the sign. Aku baru aja nulis beberapa lama waktu mengenai the sign. apa sign itu kebetulan atau memang betul2 ada sebagai petunjuk dari yang Maha Kuasa untuk memberikan kita tanda-tanda mengenai sesuatu yang kita minta? well I dont know.. kadang-kadang kala kita punya harapan dan ada sesuatu hal yang menyangkut harapan tersebut, kita pasti akan positive thinking dan menyatakan itu sebagai sign. tapi Apabila kita mendapatkan tanda2 negative dari harapan yang kita punya, kita pasti akan bilang "itu sih kebetulan aja.."
We dont know and we'll never know, tapi yang pasti, aku menemukan sign itu.. aku menemukan kebetulan itu. Walaupun aku belum berani bilang bahwa itu adalah tanda-tanda positive dari apa yang aku mau, tapi itu merupakan suatu yang bikin aku senang, bikin aku jadi deg-degan dan bikin aku berbunga-bunga..
I hope this all "kebetulan" akan selalu dekat dengan aku, supaya aku bisa memiliki yang aku butuhkan dan aku inginkan.. Aminn....

Is this the sign..

Life is Life..

Lately I was busy with my work, my project, my business and with everything related to work til I forgot what and how to rest. But when night comes, before sleep, I always asking to myself, will I be like this for the whole of my life? travelling here and there, lobbying here and there, arguing here and there.. is this work? is this life??

I said to myself that I wont be like this forever. I will be able to manage all this thing one day. I just need to manage my time better and pay more attention to details in everything I do.

Apart of that, I am thinking about fulfil something that make a life complete. A marriage.. When I think about it, something was fighting inside me.. yes, I need a real commitment but Am I ready for that..?

Lately I was thinking that, I really need someone to control me in a good way. Being alone make me still feel can do my work freely.

But if we are talking about ready or not ready, my friend said we'll never be ready. "yang penting niat Berthy, InsyaAllah dilancarkan..."

Now If I have the niat, the next one is.. whether my boyfriend also has the same.. thats another problem, knowing that the "difference" we have. But I beleive that he also has the same intention with mine.

Now I understand. Marriage is not easy. Marriage is not only you want someone to be yours forever then just go for it. There are alot of paths that you have to go through.

amazingly, I feel like my way is smoother now. there are ways to reach my dream. not like last time, the obstacle, the problem which was so complicated, (InsyaAllah), I'm not facing it right now. My friend is right, Niat is the best thing to start everything and if God will make the way easier.

I know that God loves me so much. God make my life easier. Thats why, I am thinking.. is this the sign? I dont know.. just let it be like this always, I hope..

Berthy Lamintang

My Story

Sebenernya banyak banget yang pengen aku tulis tapi kerjaanku 3 minggu ini bikin aku ga bisa nafas.. fuiiiiiih... mudah2an semuanya lancar-lancar aja..
aku sudah mulai sebel sama suasana sekarang dikantor. Bukan karena ataupun karena pressurenya yang besar, tapi satu yang bikin aku sebel.. keberadaan seseorang yang sangat under estimate dan melemahkan semangat kerjaku.Dia selalu mention "I am sure you cant do it.." "do you know what you're doing?" "I need to check by myself.."
Well... aku sekarang udah pada sampai tahap accept.. menerima. sudah tidak ada marah, kesal dan dendam lagi. This is life.. you have to face anything in your life. This is nothing compare to other problem. Apa yang harus aku lakuin sekarang adalah just show her.. ga usah complaint, ga usah marah.. just do and show it to her that I can do it.
Positive ting ting-ku bilang.. mungkin dia mau "meng-encourage" dengan cara-cara seperti itu.. I dont know and I dont care. Sekarang aku cuma mau kerjain apa yang harus aku kerjain semaksimal mungkin. toh kalo ga berhasil pun aku merasa sudah optimal.
Awal bulan depan aku pasti akan tulis banyak karena deadline semua kerjaanku tanggal 31 Maret. I hope next month life will be easier for me.. I hope... Ameeen....