Is this the sign..

Life is Life..

Lately I was busy with my work, my project, my business and with everything related to work til I forgot what and how to rest. But when night comes, before sleep, I always asking to myself, will I be like this for the whole of my life? travelling here and there, lobbying here and there, arguing here and there.. is this work? is this life??

I said to myself that I wont be like this forever. I will be able to manage all this thing one day. I just need to manage my time better and pay more attention to details in everything I do.

Apart of that, I am thinking about fulfil something that make a life complete. A marriage.. When I think about it, something was fighting inside me.. yes, I need a real commitment but Am I ready for that..?

Lately I was thinking that, I really need someone to control me in a good way. Being alone make me still feel can do my work freely.

But if we are talking about ready or not ready, my friend said we'll never be ready. "yang penting niat Berthy, InsyaAllah dilancarkan..."

Now If I have the niat, the next one is.. whether my boyfriend also has the same.. thats another problem, knowing that the "difference" we have. But I beleive that he also has the same intention with mine.

Now I understand. Marriage is not easy. Marriage is not only you want someone to be yours forever then just go for it. There are alot of paths that you have to go through.

amazingly, I feel like my way is smoother now. there are ways to reach my dream. not like last time, the obstacle, the problem which was so complicated, (InsyaAllah), I'm not facing it right now. My friend is right, Niat is the best thing to start everything and if God will make the way easier.

I know that God loves me so much. God make my life easier. Thats why, I am thinking.. is this the sign? I dont know.. just let it be like this always, I hope..

Berthy Lamintang